Wednesday, September 26, 2012
It's now 27th September 2012. Yesterday, i suddenly felt like i needed my blog again. And it's still there!
Read up on all my past posts. Trying to decipher what i was talking about cos i never post things directly related to what i mean.
Anyway after my last post, life's totally changed. Sometimes i think it's for the good but many times, i feel that it's not very good. haiz... Or simply, it's just 'karma' perhaps. So many bad decisions made, lead me to my current situation. Can never have a peace of mind. Always thinking, most of the time it's for the worse.
When i read all of my previous posts, it's a lot on looking back at bad decisions i make and regretting in. Now about 7 years later, i'm still posting things regarding bad decisions. haiz...
I suppose this is the purpose of my blog right now, when i can't talk to anybody about things and feeling extremely down. Here i am!
Well, sometimes i just think cos i've been a total ass for the so many years of my life lead me to this. 'Karma'.
It's like, payback time. I can't take it anymore.
I always strive to make the best/ fair decisions, strive to improve situations, strive to lead a 'correct' life but somehow things never totally make it or fail. never succeed. People always say that it whatever good u're trying to do, your family and friends must be there to support. But i don't receive any. All i hear is selfish remarks from others. End up, i'm the one who must bother about others 1st. I'm very very tired trying and striving. very tired.......
lean back looking at life come 'n'go...