Wednesday, September 26, 2012
It's now 27th September 2012. Yesterday, i suddenly felt like i needed my blog again. And it's still there!
Read up on all my past posts. Trying to decipher what i was talking about cos i never post things directly related to what i mean.
Anyway after my last post, life's totally changed. Sometimes i think it's for the good but many times, i feel that it's not very good. haiz... Or simply, it's just 'karma' perhaps. So many bad decisions made, lead me to my current situation. Can never have a peace of mind. Always thinking, most of the time it's for the worse.
When i read all of my previous posts, it's a lot on looking back at bad decisions i make and regretting in. Now about 7 years later, i'm still posting things regarding bad decisions. haiz...
I suppose this is the purpose of my blog right now, when i can't talk to anybody about things and feeling extremely down. Here i am!
Well, sometimes i just think cos i've been a total ass for the so many years of my life lead me to this. 'Karma'.
It's like, payback time. I can't take it anymore.
I always strive to make the best/ fair decisions, strive to improve situations, strive to lead a 'correct' life but somehow things never totally make it or fail. never succeed. People always say that it whatever good u're trying to do, your family and friends must be there to support. But i don't receive any. All i hear is selfish remarks from others. End up, i'm the one who must bother about others 1st. I'm very very tired trying and striving. very tired.......
lean back looking at life come 'n'go...
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
21st Apr 2010:
I suddenly felt like i needed my blog back.. sumhow...
read every single entry in my blog, many thngs went thru my head..
A gush of memories... sweet n sour...
My last entry was sumtime in 2007..
Don't think anyone wld read this blog anymore but it's alrite...
Can be like a diary now i guess...
Well in 3 yrs, many things change...
i took the biggest step in my life on the 27th dec '09...
Now i dunno how...
haiz....
gotta go now, will continue another time...
lean back looking at life come 'n'go...
Sunday, May 27, 2007
Don't Mattercool song, meaningful lyrics...
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter noMakes me think of the poly days and all the stuff went through wif nice ppl..
But all gone now, no hope of turning back time..
Juz gotta wait and c if chance comas by....
Reflections on the past brings smiles and sense of remorse...
Makes the present seem meaningless, cold and stone-hearted.. many things done without reason, without much thought and juz for the sake of enjoyment cause time is never gonna turn back...
So priority to enjoyment and not to bother abt anything else... cause it don't matter..
lean back looking at life come 'n'go...
Saturday, April 07, 2007
Well, last checked blogged on the 5th July 2006...
That's super long ago...
I'm too free now so decided to write some stuffs.. And i guess my english gonna suck this time cos being in the army makes anybody at least a little bit dumber..
Where i stopped the last time abt being woried abt sch...
Well ended up, i totally screwed sch up.. It's horrible...
After that, life got a little messed up...
Watever it is, all done and over with..
End up in the army now, life's tough but coping well... BMT done.. SISPEC now...
1 bad thing abt the army is that it ends your social circle out there... So if any of u gt frens serving the nation, do go out wif them when they're free.. If nt, precious weekends wld juz be wasted..
Recently been staying at home alot during weekends.. ALthough it makes my life duller, i learnt alot of things from my mum and from watching tv... Alot of lessons abt life..
Sadness, happiness, values....
With that, been reflecting alot abt wat i went thru from the beginning of poly all the way till now.. Many times, wished i could turn back time but then again, things always happen so that something else related to it could happen...
Well,i thing i do wish to do is to apologize to anybody that i did wrong to..
and tks to those who helped me thru bad times...
lean back looking at life come 'n'go...
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
Hola!!
Finally it's the semi's of the 2006 World CUp!!
But then again, there's sumthin wrong with the games this time.
The good teams are out. Teams left are juz generally ok not as 'WOW' as Brazil or Argentina.
Anyways,tonight's game looks like there might be another upset...
Life's been good. School's on the line again.
Wrk's good. Clubbing in Singapore been nt dat gd.
But DBL O on thursday's FANTASTIC!!
The music's good and drinks are extremely cheap... So u can get urselves drowned in the shots and pops...
haha
The only thing that spoils the reputation of that place is the crowd.. But just close 1 eye to that and u'll have a nite of exciting clubbing experience!
The place that's good is Liquid Room on Saturday's...
Well, waiting for my next Holiday...
But is extremely worried abt my sch now..
haiz...
GOtta persevere..
Adios!
lean back looking at life come 'n'go...
Monday, May 29, 2006
Mr Dean,
School's been really bad. Same reason;attendance.
Same old thing. Gotta pull up my socks so i won't get de-barred and all.
Need to plead with a few lecturers not to de-bar me already and school only started some weeks ago.
Can't wait for next getaway next month.
Been trying to tune this body clock to early sleep and early wake.
Not easy but gotta do it.
A fren juz passed away last night. People around been going off one-by-one.
Days towards the end of May been quite good.
Hopefully it'll go on and on.
Waiting and waiting for the World Cup.
Anyway, been hoping to see or meet and chat up with this person from SIT but so far no chance to do so.
Hmm will be waiting to chat up.
It's very interesting to look at people and know them better after looking.
Some may turn out how it should be and some turn out not good after knowing.
Think sometimes i just observe people too much that i start looking at little details about a person like how the person walks, talks, smells, dressand most important what kind of presence is given.
Very interesting points.
Been having a bad sore throat for like a week and still hvnt recover from it.
Voice sounds extremely terrible.
Tmr's another school day.
Gotta persevere for attendance sake.
Nite
Ciao.
lean back looking at life come 'n'go...
Thursday, May 18, 2006
life's been quite neutral lately...
One of nice thing that happen recently was being able to c Valen again...
hvn't seen her for super long since she went to France..
It's nice to be able to catch up on things finally....
Da Vinvi code is finally out.. Been waiting for this show for soo long..
Hope it's gonna be as good as the book...
Gotta buck on attending classes again... (as usual)
Hope good things gonna come by real soon...
hope.............
Nite.
ciao.
lean back looking at life come 'n'go...